When My Journey Comes to an End

When My Journey Comes to an End

I know my voyage in this life will be over
But through my darkest hours, I desperately
Reach and grab at anything that might shed
A little bit of light on my path.

I tend to feel calm and relaxed when I
look up and stare at the moon or
When I look up and stare at the sun.
All of my problems seem to float away
As I feel the entire universe within me

I have these moments of the world being one
And they carry me through my battles in life.

The sun and the moon may not directly
Influence what happens to me in life
But they are always there,
Awaiting my inevitable return to a place
Where my problems have really all flown away

I will become one with the sun and the moon
When my journey comes to an end.

(Photo taken by Hadley in the last month of his life.)

Philosophy 101

So, what do you do when you’re suffering? What beliefs, or foundation, do you have to hold onto? Well, if you have no beliefs, then you don’t have those to hold onto. What is foundation? Well – it’s faith – faith in something meaningful about yourself – something important – Well, when we are attached to something and our foundation is shaken, we start to fall in a deep pit. I think the process of experience is what matters most to most people and as far as everything else goes – I think you can take a little from each culture and combine them and some sort of explanation will be there. Although, I’ve found the world to be full of surprises and nothing can be for certain. It’s hard to enjoy the process if you have little faith in something meaningful to yourself. What is meaningful? I mean what is really meaningful? What do we humans put our faith in when our minds face? I put my faith in what has been labeled love. Why? Because it feels so good emotionally and physically.

Be Strong

You might not have the strength to make it today
Be strong and try anyway
Through the confusion and fear, you’ll be okay
You can and will make it through the day
And arrive somewhere where it’s like
A dream come true I say.

Raindrops

Listening to the raindrops
As they fall outside my window,
Feeling them hit my body
When they enter in through the screen.




Listening to the thunder roll
And the train whistle a little ways away,
Feeling the rain hit my body
As it enters through the screen.

Wondering about man and the world
And the entire solar system,
As I feel the raindrops hit my body
As they enter in through the screen.

My childhood

Memories of my childhood overcome me,
Causing me to remember my youth.
It stirs my heart and I can feel a deep longing
For my past.
A world where I was protected and tied in
A strong bond with my family.
My sense of ego hadn’t developed and
Didn’t have a feeling of being inferior to everybody else.

Slide show: Childhood exuberance

In our day to day lives

In our day to day lives, we are wrapped up in a blanket of time.

Living in a world where it seems that the eternal has been divided up into parts creating separate people who have the ability to be aware of individuality - plants and some animals don't have the conscious awareness of the divisions in the eternal making them unaware of time and their own individual identity.

This can be seen in the observation of a tree rooted in the ground, standing still in a constant meditation.

Only being..no thoughts, stillness, caught in the ageless flow of existence, being one with the eternal.

Slide show: A Hadley Roof sampling

Hadley remembered

"I keep trying to figure everything out.
I just want to know what it's all about.
Who am I and where do I come from.
Who's writing this song and where do I belong.






When I don't understand what's going on -
I wish I could sit back under the sun -
Close my eyes - soaking in the rays -
Smoothly connecting my nights with my days.

I've heard of a life, so calm & gentle -
not one that's topsy turvy & mental -
One that gives you so much joy -
One that let's you play with your toys."